Saturday, February 15, 2014
You can't just share a article just by reading the headline. YOU HAVE to watch the article about Ellen page, she is 26 and she came out to the nation on Feb. 14. Her speech is something that I believe anyone questioning themselves or there sexuality should watch it, even parents should watch her speech as well. I love the fact that she air quotes 'norms' it comes back to some of the things that I bring up OFTEN. I know I don't fit any one persons stereotype of a 'normal' gay guy. No one fits a 'normal' type of anything. I believe that the word 'normal' should just be eliminated. No one is ever 'normal', every single person is unique. I know I am different than any other 25 year old with HIV, I am different than any other leather boy in the leather community, also know that I am different than any other chef in the culinary industry. Me being different is what has been helping me get through the tough times I have had in the past and its going to keep pushing me further than ever. Ellen Page I thank you. You have had my support, and you will continue to have my support, keep acting and popping out some great movies.
Monday, January 27, 2014
Well today is my 5th year of testing HIV +. Truthfully I don't know what to say, the last couple of months have been great to me. Seems everything has been pretty much Uphill for me with a few slight small downhill moments. But all in all I am happy. I have attached a picture of myself and my friend Kris Kohl. Kris was one of the first people there for me to tell me that it was not a pink slip and I would live life to the fullest. So far I have been! Thank you Kris, I love you!! HIV is NOT a death sentence, I have had it for five years, I have known of others with it for much longer! I know I may sound stupid right now, but truthfully, just getting thoughts out into a blog!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Friday, January 10, 2014
What many of you may not know is that in September and October there were times that I was standing by the Red Line Tracks In Chicago, IL and thought to myself, 'I have no real meaning or purpose here, why can't I just jump and end it all'. Other thoughts that were on my mind during those times were thoughts of thinking that there was no tomorrow, the no tomorrow thoughts for me have been prevalent since I was in High School, but I have grown to accept them. I gave up on HIV, I gave up on my family, I gave up on love, I gave up on the community, and more importantly I gave up on my own life in the past. The moment I chose to live was the moment I hopped on that MegaBus in November, that was the moment I decided I NEEDED to do everything for myself. In a short period of two months I have gained 15lbs, I met a man that accepts me for my past and looks towards a future with me, I have allowed my family closer to me now more than ever before and I am just so proud to be me. This is the reasons mostly for deleting the Boy Rob Community/Public Figure page, I did it because I felt like no one really loved me in the past. I know it was all stupid thinking. I know that I am loved and cared about/for. I know I never update this blog, but I may start trying to do a weekly update mostly because I am putting my thoughts out there for me as well as you to read them, Blogging or Journaling is therapy especially for those of us that may have problems letting our feelings out really. I know it has helped me. Thank you for reading this and I really hope that you all understand exactly why I am doing this.