Random Thursday Update

DISCLOSURE:::: DO NOT ASSUME ANYTHING BY ME WRITING THIS, I AM JUST THINKING OUT LOUD AND PUTTING IT IN A BLOG!!!!!

Hey everyone, its been about a week or two since I have updated and just wanted to touch base.  I am fine, just EXTREMELY exhausted right now! I have worked for the last 7 days now.  At least I am going to have a somewhat slow weekend at drill like I usually do.  I am supposed to do a Psychal Training Test (PT) this weekend but I am bluntly going to tell my commander I am exhausted and I am starting to get sick there is NO WAY in hell am I even going to be able to finish a test better yet pass one. 
Ok other than that I am working SLOWLY on events I am going to start planning out shortly.  TBRU. CLAW, IML are just about here! TBRU is only two weeks away and CLAW is about a month and a half away! Time to SAVE SAVE SAVE! Surprisingly today we got a small $100 bonus at work which no one was expected that!  Hmm that is going to help me with some of my bills that I am trying to pay this month (ie Phone, Gym and especially RENT). 
On my 'leather boy' life I have just been sitting back, watching those in the community.  I am not acting, or trying to help those that are close I am just going to watch.   I was supposed to be a 'Official' Emcee for events and things for a organization I am apart of and held a title for, hmmm I guess since I work, have drill and really don't have time to go to Columbus for events I was voted out....Eh oh well...C'est La Vie.  I don't see a purpose of co-hosting a contest either, I did perfectly fine with it last month on my own why does someone have to be added to the mix. Oh well....once again C'est La Vie....I may or may not be able to attend it. Better yet I may be slipping away from such organization til I feel that its something I will pursue again. 

MORE TO COME LATER!!! TRAIN OF THOUGHT NOT DONE!

boy Robert

I Am Not A boy....

boy Robert

I know many of you are wondering why I have it titled I am not a boy.  Well more and more lately I am looking at myself as not being a boy anymore.  I know that I am young and I am conisdered to be a boy by all.  Unsure exactly what I am trying to say, I know that I am a boy but there are times that I am not a boy.  I know that I hold boy titles and I know that I am going to be competing for Great Lakes Leatherboy in August.  I am a boy when I need to be and I show respect for those that I know have earned that respect from the community. If you come to me and start barking orders I may obey you for a moment but I will most likely ask you were you earned your title as Sir, there are many out there that consider themself a Sir and bark orders expecting people to obey them all the time....sorry but if You haven't earned that title from the community then you havedn't earned it from me....
Essentially I am just typing this blog just as a place to vent and not really be criticized by anyone for venting. I know that I need to learn more leather protocol, but as many people have said to me I am only 23 I should be out having fun and not on the search to be someones collared boy, I do agree with that.  I am always off having fun and being me, but I really need to pull myself back together and be me again!  I know this blog is just sounding weird, just relax and read on, I may not always have the right things to say but I just need to think by typing and its easier that way for me.
Ok back to me. Sorry just thinking a lot everyone, please just be here for me when I need someone to talk to, it makes things easier for me!  I am essentially just saying I am not actively looking for a collar from anyone, I haven't really been searching for that but I have thought about it a lot, seeing other brothers of mine get collars just makes me sad and feel like I have done something wrong to not earn one. BUT I know i am NOT ready for one. 
That being said I think I have made my point mainly to myself not to anyone else. I am writing this just to look at it and see exactly what I am thinking about, hopefully that makes since.  I have decided to change my 'tag line' it will no longer be 'Giving From The Heart' it is now going to be 'I may not be the boy YOU want me to be, I am the boy I want to be!'.  The reason why I am changing it is because I want to be known for me being me, I can't be me is I am trying to be something that YOU want me to be. I hope that makes since to everyone, it makes since to me. 
With all this being said really I want to say sorry if I bored you with this blog, other wise I am proud of what I have posted and I am proud of where I am going with myself!  I am boy Robert, I am the boy I want to be, the boy I will continue to be!  I am the First Runner Up To American Leatherboy, the 2010 Ohio Valley Regional Leatherboy and the 2010 eXile Leather boy, I am Mama's Army Cub, all in all I am PROUD TO BE ME!!

Thanks For Reading!
boy Robert
'I may not be the boy YOU want me to be, I am the boy I want to be!'


May need to rethink that tag line, seems a little to long o_o

Woohoo!

So I know I said I would update everyone last week but I didn't, sorry.  Well here we go! I have talked it over with certain Daddies, Sirs/SIRS, and my amazing mentor Sir Bruce, we all have decided that I am going to compete for Great Lakes Leatherboy in August.  I  am a great boy with lots going for me and always wanting to help those of the community as well as others in need. So by taking the drive that I had with my previous two titles I am going head on and going to rock it and do my best at GLLA! 
So that's that news, the other news is that I bought a laptop today. Since I bought it I was having a buyers remorse feeling that I bought it because I wanted it not that I needed it. Well in term I do need it, I will be ensuring that when Aug/Sept roll around and I am ready for school that it will be my laptop for school, projects, and every little thing in between. I of course will still have my netbook, but I won't be using it as much as my laptop.  
Well the gym is something I am glad I did! I have gone twice since I joined last Monday, I will start tanning soon just to get that pretan going lol. I havent decided on my trip to Key West, I want to go but at the same time I could either I visit family, or something else that could be fun. Not sure yet, I was supposed to bartend down there, but the guy doesn't need me to do it now....so that's why I haven't decided on that yet...
Well everyone back to work! Glad to have you all read about me. I'm really nothing special. I am just me!

boy Robert

Better boy!

Hey everyone, just want to do a quick update.  I know I was posting on facebook earlier that I am tired of the stomach that I have and tired of the fat that I have been occuring in my stomach region.  Well I joined a club today called Planet Fitness and this is actually something that I am very proud of doing recently.  I am getting happier slowly as days pass by. Which in terms is a good thing!  I am also looking into something, which I won't say exactly what it is til the time is right!  Lets just say a contest may be in my future.....Not telling You which one I am looking at yet!  I will update everyone later tonight on my first experience at Planet Fitness after I get home from my first time there!

boy is getting better!

WOOOHOOO!!!

For those of You that do not have me on there facebook page you don't know about the good news that I received on Friday.  I have received my admission letter accepting me as a student to Sinclair Community College.  It is just a community college, but I can get my Associate of Applied Science - Hospitality Management & Tourism- Culinary Arts.  I am very excited, nervous and kind of wishing the fall would get here so I can start!  So that is my big news lol.  So on the worst day of the year (Jan. 27th) something good came out of that day! Glad to have been accepted and ready to get back to school already, I need to stop slacking off and get serious!
So unsure if I mentioned this on hre yet or not but in less than 23 days I will be on my way to Key West, FL for one big Mardi Gras Party! I really can't wait!  I have been asked to come down and bartend at a bar and celebrate Mardi Gras, I have NEVER been asked to do something so fun and amazing!  I will of course be wearing my Mr Friendly pin while there to show support.  So much is going on with me in such little time really, just hope I have fun while doing all these little things.
Not really sure what else to type up right now only because I don't know what else I should say lol. I hope that everyone has a great rest of the wekend! I get to bartend tonight at Stage Door, so if any of my Dayton friends read his come and see me tonight!

Thanks For Reading!
boy Robert

Me

Robert

I have had some ups and downs recently. More downs than ups, I am healthy so that is a up, but with my attitude and moods changing into a slight depression its dragging me down.  I am not trying to make this sound like a pity party, blah blah blah I am depressed. But in the long run I think that I am going through a depression, I think that all the stuff that is going through my mind is dragging me down and not wanting to let me get to the full potential that I really want to be at.
Some look at me and see a boy, some look at me and see a cub, some look at me and see Robert. I really just want everyone to look at me and see Robert, the real me, I am a boy, I am a cub, but they do not define me as who I am or who I want to be. I am just your average 23 year old that is HIV +, I am interested in Culinary, Planes, Leather, and so much more. But that is who I am.  I have leather titles, and I hold a Mama's Family name and I am glad to be apart of all of that.
Still not sure what I am getting at with writing this blog, essentially I guess I am just saying that I am a boy, but it doesn't define me. I hope that makes sense. Otherwise I just wrote randomness things.  I am NOT in search of a collar, leash, lock or anything from a Sir/SIR/Dom/DOM/Daddy/DADDY. I just want to be me, and lately its been getting harder to be me. So I really just want to step further steps back away from everything even though I just stepped forward again, I don't think I'm ready to be back to where I was back in Oct.

Sorry if I have lost You all by writing this just trying to get things off my mind.

Robert,
boy Robert

Scruff, Growlr, Grindr

So I constantly get hit on by people all over the World on these apps. I don't mind it at all, I like it. The only thing that I have been getting irritated with is when someone constantly asks to see nude pics of me, or to unlock my pics on Growlr. I don't mind doing it, but please don't ask me fifteen million times! The pics on Growlr are just me shirtless, I am a good boy(hold your laughter) I don't just want to show my pics to just anyone.
In the long run not really sure why I am complaining about this I should just accept it. Also if you want to see nude pics of me that bad there are supposedly pics of me floating around on tumblr..... If I find them I'll post the link here for those who really want to see them. Well I guess I need to get back to work! Almost done, and the plus is that it's my Friday!!! Going home, cleaning, drinking some beer, then who knows what trouble I can come up with tonight!!!!

boy Robert
-Posted From ArmyCub's iPhone!