Saturday, January 29, 2011
So I was just thinking to myself while I was washing the dishes that two days ago (Jan. 27th) was my two year anniversary of discovering that I was HIV +. I remember that I was sad and depressed about it and I didn't really have anyone to talk to. I remember that I had had thoughts of taking my life because I didn't know why god would have given me the disease with no cure. But I thought about it and there is a reason he gave it to me, I was in a hole. My life was sucking, I had a crappy job no real friends just people who posed themselves as a friend and turn around to stab you while your not looking. But now I look back and see that it had changed me. From then to now I have made so many friends, some are positive some are negative, but they don't care what your status is as long as you are true to yourself. Its amazing that two years of being HIV + I didn't have to take any sort of meds, but on the 27th of Jan I started taking Atripla. We shall see how that med works with me and if it is going to help lower my counts and everything. HIV really doesn't change who you are, its you who changes who you are. I was in a hole and for some strange reason it made me look at myself and want to better myself. Thats when I realized I needed to do more for myself and more for the community, and since then I have been helping with different charities and fundraisers in the different states that I have lived in. I love helping and I really don't think I'll be stopping anytime soon! This is just a random blog of thoughts that I have had today, it is a bit jumbled, but I hope you understand what it means really.